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Jul. 21st, 2009 @ 10:43 am That counts as motivation
Current Mood: sleepy

So I'm back at work from a weekend in Vegas. As you might imagine, I'm not particularly excited to be here.

However, I did just find out that I got my annual raise, which I thought was going to be skipped this year because of the budget cuts. Woo for that!
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Jul. 1st, 2009 @ 04:41 pm Blargh

Every so often (more often in the summer, less in other parts of the year), my job requires me to work a 12-hour day. Which wouldn't be so bad, if at the end of today I didn't need to be presentable for the public and recordable for (online) posterity. >_<

However, this does mean I get to leave a couple of hours early tomorrow, right before the 3-day weekend for the Fourth of July. That's what I'm clinging to in order to get through the day.

(I keep meaning to be more active with this journal, but I didn't intend to bring it back just for wangsting. Oops.)
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Apr. 24th, 2009 @ 11:49 am Friday happy 5
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: "Antebellum," Vienna Teng

I should remember to do this more often!

1. Recognizing the music coming from a co-worker's office as the Intermezzo from Pietro Mascagni's Cavalleria Rusticana ... because it was used in an episode of Rurouni Kenshin. 8D

2. I'm the only one in my office-pod this morning, because both of my co-workers are at a workshop. That means I get to play my music without wearing headphones. \o/

3. Last night, I awoke multiple times to hear [info]ratzeo tell Kershach to stop grooming his head. XD This is probably not such a happy thing for [info]ratzeo himself (particularly since Kershach got him right in the ear once), but I still find it absolutely adorable. ♥

4. Rediscovering my love of hair jewelry! When I was trying to look all nice and professional for the Accreditation visit, I broke out my collection for the first time in weeks, or months. Which is sad, because I have a rather massive amount of it! (I seem to forget about things like jewelry and my BPAL during the winter, because in the mornings I'm usually stumbling around in the cold and dark, looking for just the essentials of "pants and shirt" before running out the door.) Of course, this also means I just plunked down a bunch of money ordering even more hair jewelry online ...

5. Spring, spring, spring! Seattle is finally giving in to the change of the season, and I'm so happy to get the sun back.
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Apr. 13th, 2009 @ 05:05 pm 5 happy things

Between work and dashing off to a meeting with my old Women Studies classmates -

1. OUR APARTMENT IS BACK!!! The work was completed on Friday(-ish ... the carpet was shampooed, and it wasn't really dry until the end of the weekend), but on top of that we were faced with the prospect of cleaning up the detritus of the repairs, re-assembling our apartment, and moving out of our campsite in the empty unit. But we did it! And we're back home!!

2. [info]ratzeo and I did the bulk of the work on Saturday. Well, correction - [info]ratzeo did a big-ass load of the work on Friday night, while I was taking a nap. (Sneaky wonderful bastard. :P) But anyway, by the time we were done it was past 8:00 in the evening, I was tired and didn't want to cook, but I was starving and also wanted to get the hell out of our apartment for a bit. We ended up going to the Sand Point Grill to try it out. Not only was the food delicious, they have a Saturday special where a fixed price gets you a three-course meal made from local ingredients. A nice little place, and we plan to go back when we have another reason for a fancy-ish (read: pricey) dinner.

3. I got an ergonomic keyboard at work to help with my tendonitis, and I'm totally in love with it. I think it's helping the pain - I have a brace that I've been wearing, so it's already been getting better, but I think the keyboard is helping on top of that. Plus it's got quieter keys than my old clacky keyboard. I kind of want to steal it for home on the weekends. :x

4. Vienna Teng's new CD, Inland Territory, is lovely. And I get to see her perform it live next week!

5. The aforementioned meeting. I haven't seen these ladies in months (or more!).
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Jan. 20th, 2009 @ 08:02 pm 5 good things for a recovery day
Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: "Never Want to Say It's Love," Dido

I didn't particularly want to go back to work today, because I still have the remnants of a head cold, and that makes dealing with work pressures particularly unappealing. But it was better to go and get things done than stay at home and let deadlines pile up, so I went.

And good things happened!

1. My department set up a laptop and projector in the conference room, so we could watch the inauguration ceremony. I was pretty much in a constant state of tearing-up-with-happiness (with the exception of Rick Warren's speech).

2. Some co-workers brought in food for the office, so we had bagels and salmon spread for a breakfasty snack, and hot wings for a lunchy snack.

3. One of our newly graduated doctoral students donated 10-minute massages to everyone in the office. While 10 minutes is hardly enough time to do any permanent damage to my shoulder knots, it's definitely enough to make me feel better.

4. Mail call! I got all three packages I was waiting for in today's mail: books, more books, and tea (which was part of my previous tea order, not a new purchase :P).

5. I'm spending the evening cooking meals so that I can have dinner for the week, as well as homemade lunches at work. The menu is spaghetti with ground turkey and mushrooms, and oven-baked salmon with mashed potatoes and broccoli. Simple dishes (that's all I cook, anyway), but tasty. :D~
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Jan. 17th, 2009 @ 12:23 pm 5 happy things
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: "One Sweet Love," Sara Bareilles

I'm fighting off the remnants of a cold that laid me low on Thursday ... but, all things considered, my weekend is off to a good start.

1. Work: All things considered, work is going pretty well. I was out sick on Thursday, but I took the opportunity to work from home for a few hours and get some (easy but time-consuming) tasks done while I didn't have the distractions of the office. I was still only half-functional on Friday, but the office was closed for admissions, so I had more low-distraction work time. Plus, everyone being in the office together, with our doors closed to the outside, generates a stronger sense of camaraderie.

My work stress is just declining in general, though, and that's fantastic. Admittedly, a good chunk of that is because the high-stress period of the year (for my position) is winding down. However, I do think I'm doing a decent job of sticking to my resolutions and keeping my work stress in perspective.

2. Old friends: Last night after work I met some old friends from school (the group I went to the NWSA conference with) for the first time in several months. One of our friends hosted, and we put together a potluck dinner that turned out amazingly delicious (port, bread and cheese, couscous, samosas ...). Spending time with these friends is always such a positive, energizing experience, because they're funny, whip-smart, and passionate about justice.

I notice that this is something I really need to have in my life, even if it's just every couple of months. My closest friends are geek-types, and that's what I love on a day-to-day basis ... but at the same time, the things that get us really fired up (and "angry," if you want to say that, but not in a negative way) don't always overlap. And being fired up in a social context that doesn't match - that can turn into just feeling angry-in-a-negative-way. So being able to plop myself into a group of people who say "yes, we're angry about what you're angry about, and let's use that to generate ways to resist and rebuild" is valuable.

3. Kittens: The friend who hosted dinner last night has 4-month old kittens. XD They are absolutely adorable, little gray tabby boys whose stripes are more like splotches and make them look wild (they were, in fact, found abandoned in the woods). There was a little short-haired boy with a near-prehensile tail who sat in my lap after I stole his sleeping spot (a.k.a. sat in the chair he was on), and a fluffy long-haired boy with a face like a (tiny) bobcat. Like all kittens, they felt like they could fit in a single handful. Eeeeee~

4. Cuddles: I am lucky to live with two very cuddly boys who will give me snuggles after a long day at work. ♥ Kershach in particular is an excellent source of healing, when he is curled up into a kitty "C" and lets me just lay my head on his cushy fur and listen to him breathing (asleep) or purring (awake). He is also highly skilled in the art of the sleeping-in-on-a-weekend good-morning cuddle.

[info]ratzeo is not a snorgleable fluffball, but he does a good job nonetheless. ;)

5. Tea: I continue to be addicted to Adagio tea, and decided to try their rooibos tea, even though my last experience with loose leaf rooibos from another tea company went poorly (the scent was so cloying it made me nauseous). Whether Adagio's rooibos is better, or my tastes have changed, or both, I am now smitten with their Rooibos Almond.

Although I guess this is both good and bad, because it makes me want to make another tea order ... even though I've made two large orders within the past month. *headdesk*

Boring tea babble: I've found myself gravitating toward flavored tea recently. Partly that's because I'm branching out as a tea nerdconnoisseur and just trying new things. But also, the flavored tea I've had the most experience with are the kinds you can find easily - which translates to bagged black teas from grocery stores. Flavored black teas tends to have a muted taste, I think, because black tea is so strong - or, conversely, the flavoring is overpowering and fake-tasting in order to compensate. On the other hand, herbal teas (which I've learned are called "tisanes" *The More You Know rainbow*) don't have to pit the flavoring against the strong taste of black tea, because they're just fruit pieces or flowers. I think that provides more of the actual flavor I'm looking for, and is a lot tastier - though of course YMMV.

*Last-minute #6: Junk email with a subject line of, "Your shlong can be shlonger."
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Jan. 2nd, 2009 @ 02:16 pm For the New Year
Current Mood: lunch-ing

Welcome to 2009! Here's hoping that, however well or poorly 2008 treated you, your 2009 will be better.

I'm going to use the New Year as a time to formalize the goals I've been developing over the past few months (and post them here in order to make myself accountable), so here we go:

This gets long )

Here's to a good year.
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Dec. 23rd, 2008 @ 10:48 pm Snow day part III
Current Mood: surprised

My university has announced an inclement weather shut-down for tomorrow - making this the third day in a row they've done so, when this is the first time they have officially shut down in years. The sudden snow dump really hit Seattle hard.

... On the other hand, I find it really really hard not to be gleeful like a child on a snow day. XD
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Dec. 22nd, 2008 @ 12:54 pm Happy birthday to me
Current Mood: grateful
Current Music: "Mission Street," Vienna Teng

Here is how I've spent the morning of my birthday so far:

- Sleeping in!

- [info]ratzeo woke me up long enough to tell me that he and his parents agreed that he should not try to travel, and he will be staying here for Christmas. I'm sad that neither of us gets to be with our parents for the holiday, but I'm happy that we'll be together.

- My parents called (waking me up, but I don't care) to wish me a happy birthday.

- A few minutes into the phone call, I heard "Maow maow maow," as Kershach made his calling meow (when he walks around asking 'where are you guys?') and found me in bed. This is unusual, because Kershach typically follows anyone who's awake, so since [info]ratzeo was already up, Kershach should have stuck with him and hung out in the living area. But he hopped up onto the bed and indulged in a belated birthday-morning cuddle. So while I was talking to my parents (and eventually [info]kyonkun, who also called with birthday wishes), I was curled up with a warm, soft, snuggly, fluffy ball of purr. ♥

- The university suspended operations today (which NEVER happens), so I get to stay home guilt-free! (Also pay-free, unfortunately, but that's not unreasonable.) That means that I will be able to take my personal holiday tomorrow, for a long weekend, short work-week, and hopefully plenty of time for the snow to melt and the city transportation to right itself.

And now ... now I think I shall continue what I started last night, and keep learning to play Guitar Hero. 8D
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Dec. 16th, 2008 @ 04:25 pm Tea addict

The big high-up in my department (well, one of them) gives Christmas presents to everyone in the office. She just gave me my gift - a big tea mug and tea.

First of all, that's kind of her. Secondly ... I guess my tea addiction really is that obvious, since we work at opposite ends of the office and rarely see each other. :P

Still working on the thinky thing from yesterday ... Wish me luck.
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Dec. 15th, 2008 @ 02:45 pm A reminder to myself
Current Mood: pensive

A couple of people know that I've been having a very difficult time with work lately. I think [info]ratzeo is the only person who knows all the details about all of the issues (by virtue of living with me and getting to hear me vent and/or decompress every time something happens - lucky him). In brief, a combination of the rigors of my new position, crises within my job as well as throughout the university, and my continued bumpy transition from student-hood to "adult" life, have left me struggling.

It's not a big deal, any moreso than what other people experience in any of those circumstances. But you know what they say about your own problems being bigger because they're your own, etc. etc. Anyway, suffice it to say, I've been dealing with some stress, frustration, and discouragement, as well as trying to reconcile the things that have been causing them.

Today I found out that a colleague has been diagnosed with cancer. I've known her for years, but since we work in different departments I don't know her very closely; still, I know her well enough to know how much of a loss it would be if she doesn't recover.

And sadly, it seems like I needed something this much bigger than me to give me some perspective. I thought I was dealing with my difficulties well enough, but in light of this news I can feel how much I've been granting them undue magnitude. I can treat my problems seriously and give them due consideration without treating them as all-consuming, as you should treat things like - well, not quite life-threatening illness, I don't think I've been that bad - but things that are bigger than what I'm dealing with.

I've been giving my job the central position in my life, and thus devoting the bulk of my mental energy to it, and also letting the stress from it determine the bulk of my mood. And I've known this, and been working on it, but in light of today's news I realize in no uncertain terms that I should change it now.

Something to think about. I don't know quite how to meet this new goal yet. I do know that if I can let my work problems leak over into the rest of my life (which has a real effect, even if it's "just" mental), I can do the reverse with the happy parts of my life. Let them leak everywhere.

I want to say more, but my lunch break is over and I should get back to that work I just mentioned (with a more positive mindset).
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Dec. 2nd, 2008 @ 08:18 am Good morning
Current Mood: sleepy

Some happy things:

1. [info]lunapome and [info]music_enforcer stopped by last night, and it's always good to see them. (Incidentally, they were giving [info]ratzeo a ride back from work, and it's good to see him too. XD)

2. [info]music_enforcer also fixed whatever-it-was that was making my computer stop recognizing an internet connection, yays. (That was the most pressing recent problem with my computer, so now it's functional, maybe in need of updating but not replacing. Phew.)

3. [info]ratzeo helped me out by acting as a sounding board for a work conundrum. (Though tackling the conundrum is still intimidating. :/)

4. Last night I got to watch Kershach wage epic battle with a tea leaf. XD Tea leaves, crumbs, etc. are really visible on our pale kitchen floor, so he often investigates and plays with them. This time, he did that thing that cats do, where they not only stalk and pounce on their "prey" ... they also witness its terrible might, and occasionally flee in a mad scramble from its horrific onslaught. Of course, on our linoleum floor, that also meant that Kershach scrabbled for several seconds before getting the traction to actually go anywhere. XD

5. Flannel bedsheets! We just broke them out this weekend, and they're so warm. *_*
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Nov. 17th, 2008 @ 12:12 pm 5 happy things vs. work
Current Mood: stressed

Today is one of those "THIS IS WHY I WAS AFRAID OF GETTING THIS JOB" days. :/

To combat that, here are 5 happy things:

1. A rousing game of Red Dragon Inn, played last night with friends. :D

2. My kitty. :3 Kershach continues to be a snuggle-monkey in bed, and will let us drape an arm over him when he lies down next to us, or we can even hold him like a teddy bear. It's best when he's lying on my chest, and I wrap both arms around him and snorgle my face into his fur while I listen to him purr. ♥

3. Adagio's herbal tea. A while ago I grew tired of fruit-flavored (black) tea, because the flavoring added to tea leaves either tastes fake to me, or the leaves themselves make it taste weird. So I decided to get some herbal tea from Adagio, which is just made of fruit and flowers. Their Wild Strawberry is quite yummy, and I plan to get more flavor samples with my next order.

4. Speaking of Adagio orders, I have one coming in today. XD (I'm not addicted. Er.)

5. [info]ratzeo continues to be my partner in all ways: best friend, boyfriend, roommate, fellow kitty-parent, and co-conspirator in all things geeky. ♥
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Oct. 20th, 2008 @ 12:59 pm Not so bad
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: "Away From the Sun," 3 Doors Down

5 happy things for a Monday:

1. Work didn't explode last week! Which ... granted, I didn't really expect it to, but I'm glad that my hopes were proven correct over my paranoia. :P The next few weeks and months are tough, but definitely look more doable from this vantage point.

2. Kershach had a check-up at the vet on Saturday, and he managed pretty well - more curious than nervous at being taken outside, and only slightly pouty when we got home. Also, the vet said he looked good, and is fattening up nicely from his stray weight. :3

3. A wonderful articulation of why I am allowed to be angry without being shut down by condescending cynics. (Please note that, despite what some commenters seem to think, this sentiment condemns neither those who are too weary to share in my anger, nor does it promote anger as the best/only way to respond to injustice.)

4. On Saturday [info]ratzeo and I used the tickets I got him as a birthday present, and watched Spring Awakening with [info]music_enforcer and [info]lunapome. Unfortunately ... we weren't really impressed with the show. :/ Fortunately, the performers were good, even if the show itself wasn't that great, and it provided plenty of conversation material as we dissected it. ;) Then we stayed in for the evening and watched Juno, which was one of the best movies I've seen in a long time.

5. On Sunday evening, [info]ratzeo and I were both worn out, so we spent a quiet evening in. Just the two of us (plus cat), with dinner, wine, and Mario Galaxy. It helped me face Monday morning. ♥
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Oct. 13th, 2008 @ 02:29 pm Because I need this
Current Mood: stressed

I did this once before, but I think I need to do it again, because a straightforward list of "5 happy things" isn't much help when my mind is still occupied by stress even with the happiness. So let's try it again.

5 complaints, with 5 happy responses )
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Oct. 2nd, 2008 @ 10:07 am Time to take a breath
Current Mood: excited

The first half of this week was pretty tough, what with battling off lingering sickness from the weekend, plus the monthly recruiting events yesterday. Since my boss is out of the office, it fell to me to do the events by myself (previously I had observed him doing one, and then done one cooperatively with him). This also required me to stay a couple of hours late at work, which was an unpleasant addition to the stress.

But anyway. The events are done, more or less successfully, and I think I'm over my sickness. *knock on wood*

The big thing now is that [info]ratzeo and I are going to the shelter today to pick out a kitty. ^____________^

If all goes well, we'll find someone we love, go through the adoption process, and bring it home tomorrow. Then we plan to take this weekend to stay in, acclimating the new addition to the household and also taking time for ourselves to recharge. We don't plan to go anywhere or see anybody else for the entire weekend*. Right now, that sounds fabulous.

So if anyone has spare good-kitty vibes to send to us, I'd appreciate it. I'm a little nervous about the prospect of picking someone who's going to be in my life for the next decade (at least, and hopefully longer), and I hope we find a cat who's a good fit for us. Also, I could probably use any spare willpower you've got so that I avoid bringing home a half dozen kittens in addition. :P

Come Friday, look for picspam as I fill up my camera with pictures of the new furball. (And also, people whom I owe emails should finally hear from me this weekend, now that I have time to catch up!)

*Well, okay, maybe I'll see [info]kyonkun, since she's coming back from her trip to Singapore and all.
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Aug. 29th, 2008 @ 03:52 pm This shouldn't make me so happy.
Current Mood: dorky

I just gave out my business card for the first time. I feel stupidly pleased with myself. Now I can pretend I'm a real grown-up and everything!
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Aug. 29th, 2008 @ 09:21 am Quiet
Current Mood: relaxed

I'm the only one in my office today. o_o Both of my office-mates are on vacation today, presumably to take advantage of the Labor Day holiday. In any case, it means I'm all alone - plus, since our office is located at the very back of our departmental suite-thingy, it's super quiet in this whole area.

Today might be one of those days when I get up and walk over to co-workers when I have questions for them, rather than just emailing or calling them. *lonely*

In other news, today is my last day in the office for a bit - I'm taking some vacation myself, and I won't be be back to work until a week from Monday. ^_______^ [info]ratzeo and I are going to use this week to finish unpacking (though we're almost done, huzzah!), go shopping for household supplies, spruce the place up for our housewarming, and just take it easy at home with very few outside obligations. I cannot wait.

(Please note that we do not yet have internet service in the apartment, so after I leave work today I won't have internet access until ... well, until we get hooked up, and I don't know how soon that will be. So in the meantime, if anyone local needs to get a hold of me, please give me a call.)
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Aug. 6th, 2008 @ 08:48 am Relief
Current Mood: relieved

Three things happened yesterday that have really taken a load off my mind. In ascending order:

-I'm getting a new phone at work! For some reason, when the University folks installed my work station, they gave me a phone that was different from everyone else's in the office. This means that my phone a) doesn't show the number of the caller, b) doesn't have the capacity for two phone lines, and c) doesn't give a visual cue that I have voicemail. None of these are work-stopping, but they're rather annoying and inefficient. However, we had originally been told that it would be really expensive (as in, three digits) to get this fixed, so I was told (and I reluctantly agreed) that it would be more efficient to wait until the autumn, when we are likely going to be moving around, and thus rearranging our phones, anyway.

Yesterday I was told that we were given a better quote (down to two digits), so I get a new phone! This should happen in a week or two - and I'm happy to wait that long, rather than a couple of months.

-We hired my replacement yesterday! Again, this won't go into effect for about two weeks, but at least the end of half-days-at-the-job-I-no-longer-have is in sight!

-Yesterday after work, [info]ratzeo and I signed the lease to our new apartment. ♥ This is a place that I had actually looked at last week, and even started the application process for, but I waffled a lot because of the size. I love everything else about the apartment, and the apartment complex is great and well-reviewed, but the apartment is an oversized one-bedroom. So it's about the size of a decent two-bedroom (and probably less expensive), but I worried that this wouldn't be enough space/rooms for the two of us, because we're both people who need our space. Poor [info]kyonkun and [info]shadawyn have heard about my concerns at length. :P

But on Monday our (larger) first choice apartment fell through, so I took Sean to see this apartment in person yesterday. With the two of us there, it was easier to visualize how we would comfortably share the space - not to mention easier to visualize us making this place our home, which was a big factor - so we went ahead and signed the papers. I'm not absolutely certain we won't look for a larger space eventually, but I am mostly certain we'll be perfectly happy in this space for now.

Which means my two-month-long apartment hunt is over, whoo!

And today, I'm sitting at home in my PJs because I'm going to work two hours late. Granted, that's because I'm staying two hours late today, but at least that means I got to sleep in.
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Jul. 18th, 2008 @ 01:14 pm More thoughts on the new job
Current Mood: pleased

I'm really, really liking this. And I know, since I'm only doing half-days and also just starting to take on responsibilities (my new boss is kindly introducing me via observation, I've only taken on low-level projects so far), I don't know exactly what it will be like. But I'm already enjoying the different flavor of the job.

My old job was engaging - at the beginning. Once I learned everything that I needed to, however, much of my daily activity was accomplished by rote. And I think I hit that point even sooner than I would have in the same kind of job, but at a different company - simply because I had already worked in this office (as a student) for so long prior to starting the permanent job. So even though I was allowed to ask for additional responsibilities and training, there was only so much that could be done, and I couldn't escape my regular (and necessary, but now tedious) duties.

This job will definitely require more critical thinking, as I navigate with/between students, faculty, university bureaucracy, and outside agencies. I'll have my fair share of standard, possibly tedious, duties, but that won't be all that I do. I am/will be taking on more demanding projects and potential problems. I imagine I will feel frustrated and intimidated at times, but also challenged and engaged in a way that I've been missing.
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