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Jul. 20th, 2008 @ 09:49 pm Thinking about strippers
Current Mood: thoughtful

So. Last night at [info]zinjadu's birthday party, she had a male stripper (courtesy of the lovely [info]lunapome). It was ... an experience. I don't know if it's an experience I necessarily needed in my life, but, uh, it's an experience and I had it. XD "Have a stranger in a thong sit on my lap and make me smack his ass" is now off of my list of things to do before I die (in case for some reason it was ever on there).

Anyway. More interesting to my nerdy brain than the embarrassingly up-close-and-personal aspect of the show was the fact that it was the closest encounter I've had with a sex worker. (I'm not sure if a man parading around in a thong should be classified as sex work any more than female models lounging around in lingerie, but in any case I don't know any sex workers personally - at least, none who have shared as much with me - so this is the closest I've come to someone who fits the category.)

Thinking about expectations, boundaries, and gender differences )
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Apr. 24th, 2008 @ 04:26 pm rape prevention: ur doin it wrong
Current Mood: *sigh*

From the front-page article of today's campus newspaper, "UWPD to train students in rape defense":

"One in six women is a victim of rape or attempted rape during her lifetime in Washington state. In order to combat these statistics, the University of Washington Police Department is holding a women’s self-defense class."


Uh, no. In order to combat rape, you teach people not to rape. Within the sexism-fueled rape culture that we live in, that means, first and foremost, teaching men to respect women's sexual and bodily autonomy. Providing women self-defense education so that they can keep themselves from being victimized is a stopgap solution. It can be useful, yes, but is not to be mistaken for the primary method of sexual violence prevention.

Ironic that this article comes along just as I'm reading The Macho Paradox, which describes how we mistakenly place our attention and scrutiny upon (female) victims of sexual violence, rather than looking at men, who commit the overwhelming majority of sexual violence and actually have it in their power to prevent it. Notice how the article is comfortable naming women as the primary/only targets of sexual violence - which is true - but fails to note that men are the primary perpetrators of it. Notice how it makes men, and men's responsibility to prevent themselves and their peers from committing sexual violence, disappear.

To get a sense of how ridiculous this one-sided attention is, check out [info]misia's Open Source Swift Kick to the Balls Project (a satirical response to the Open Source Boob Project). Does it seem absurd that the proposed project puts the onus on men to prevent unwanted/violent attention perpetrated upon their own bodies? How absurd is it that we do expect women to do this for themselves, every damn day?
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Apr. 24th, 2008 @ 12:22 pm Happy almost-Friday
Current Mood: sluggish

1. Yesterday's geeky morning was followed by today's geeky morning, wherein [info]ratzeo and I spent the bus ride theorizing about Warmakers. 8D

2. The Open Source Boob WTFuckery has been countered with the Open Source Women Back Each Other Up Program, joined by the Gentlemen's Auxiliary.

3. I'm wearing "La Belle Dame Sans Merci" today. The reviews promised a floral scent with a sharp, cold edge. What I'm getting is a pretty floral that's definitely not gentle, but, alas, not the edge I was looking for. Still, it's quite lovely, so I like it a lot. But this means that my search continues for a perfect BPAL scent for Sae. 8D

4. This. Yeah.

5. Progress on The Macho Paradox goes slowly, but steadily. (Rather than beat myself up on the low number of pages I've read, I will focus on the good: that I've been making consistent progress on a theory - however light - book for the first time in months.) My next NWSA research book, Black Sexual Politics, arrived at my house this morning, and The Cult of True Victimhood shipped out today.
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Apr. 22nd, 2008 @ 08:39 pm So much YES
Current Mood: fucking entitled fucking men

"On a serious note, when I'm having low self esteem times and I notice I'm doing things to get external validation (especially sexualized validation), I do a little self check in to make sure I actually want to do the thing. Also, while positive external attention can be a nice little ego boost, it can not create self esteem or security. Those, by nature, have to come from inside.

Also also, while I have had friends have ask to feel my chest, and I have said yes, it did not heal either of us of anything. If the wound to your soul can be fixed via a boob grab, then it must have been more of a soul papercut."


Yes, yes, yes. I cannot say it enough. This ties into so many things I believe about women's (lack of) self-esteem and its connection to the objectification of women's bodies. It's just ... yes.

(If you want context, you may follow the link and figure it out. Myself, I don't want to give the dipshit author of the original post in question any extra publicity. On the other hand, this sparkymonster person seems like quite a fine individual.)
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Apr. 15th, 2008 @ 11:31 am Joss Whedon on the murder of Dua Khalil

Today I found a link to Joss Whedon's commentary on the murder of Dua Khalil, a young woman who was killed almost exactly one year ago. Her death is yet another instance of the abuse of women being treated as a spectator sport - and in the year since, that has not changed. The reason Joss' entry surfaced again is that a charity anthology, Nothing But Red, was written to commemorate Khalil's murder and raise money for Equality Now, and it has just been released.

I never read Joss' entry last year, but I'm glad I found it now. If you are like me and also missed it, I want to bring this it to your attention now for two reasons: the first is that, as to be expected, Joss writes very eloquently about Khalil's death, as well as the pervasiveness of misogyny and sexual oppression.

The second reason is this quote:

"Women’s inferiority – in fact, their malevolence -- is as ingrained in American popular culture as it is anywhere they’re sporting burkhas. I find it in movies, I hear it in the jokes of colleagues, I see it plastered on billboards, and not just the ones for horror movies. Women are weak. Women are manipulative. Women are somehow morally unfinished."


I appreciate that Joss does not use this event as a call to arms for feminism that relies on perpetuating racist and imperialist power differences. In other words, he does not seek to protect women from misogyny by redirecting our malice against non-white men and non-U.S. cultures. Too often, the response - the feminist response, even - to news such as this is one of, "Look how awful they are," and "We should help those women over there." Villainizing minority men, infantilizing minority women, and ignoring the whole heap of steaming bullshit that is sexism in the United States.

I do not feel safe from misogyny for being born in the U.S. In fact, when my so-called "liberal" or "progressive" male peers decry "foreign" sexism but refuse to acknowledge the necessity of combatting or even acknowledging their own privilege - I don't feel very safe at all. Finding one more male ally who not only challenges his male privilege, but also refuses to soothe his ego by relying on his racial privilege, gives me some hope.
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Jan. 30th, 2008 @ 11:13 am Flirting or harassment or what
Current Mood: thoughtful

It's funny sometimes, how subtle the line is between friendly and creepy teasing.

A delivery guy came to drop off a package for the office, and told me to "Sign and print your name ... and maybe your home phone number." It took me a second to process what he said, and by the time I looked up from signing to ask him to clarify, he said, "Just kidding." I laughed politely, and he added, "I just wanted to steal that smile." (He paused for a second before the word "steal"; I think he was searching for a word. He had the slight accent of someone whose first language is Spanish or maybe Italian.)

I didn't feel outright uncomfortable. The guy was definitely skirting the line, but didn't cross it in my mind, and I'm trying to figure out just why.

Here are the things that were counting against him:
-Older guy, maybe late 30s or 40s. I think my age (early twenties) is pretty easy to tell, and while it's not as bad as an older guy saying the same thing to a teenager, it's still not very okay to do.
-I couldn't tell immediately that he was joking, either through tone of voice or him saying "Just kidding" right after he made the joke.

On the other hand, some things tipped it over into the non-creepy side:
-Public setting, brightly lit office, not isolated from other people.
-His body language was casual; he neither got too close to me nor carried himself in a way that seemed suspicious skeevy.
-He backed off quickly when I smiled but didn't say anything, and didn't push for a further response.

I do think that it can be difficult to try flirting or bantering with someone without slipping into creepy/harassment territory. (Which does not mean I agree with the entitled whiners who complain that anti-sexual harassment efforts have ruined dating. All it means is that you need to pay attention to the other person's responses, and back off or apologize if necessary.) My own experience might have been read quite differently by someone else.
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Nov. 15th, 2007 @ 11:15 am Lakota Sioux women's shelter needs help

All text from the Pretty Bird Woman House blog.

In May of this year, the progressive netroots pulled together to save a tiny women's shelter on a Lakota Sioux reservation in South Dakota. Thanks to over 680 strangers who donated a combined $27,000, Pretty Bird Woman House was able to keep its doors open for the duration and provide emergency shelter for 188 women and 132 children.

But just last month thieves broke into Pretty Bird Woman House - literally smashing holes through the walls. They stole the computers, the television, clothing, toiletries - all donated. Then arsonists set fire to the building.

Pretty Bird Woman House remains open, without a house, in an unheated, donated office. The tribal council has done all it can afford to do. Without a house, this sanctuary will die.

Pretty Bird Woman House needs another netroots miracle to survive. There is so much in the world we are powerless over. For Pretty Bird Woman House you can make a difference, make the world a better place, right here, right now, today.


More information )

Links
Friends of Pretty Bird Woman House Yahoo Group
Pretty Bird Woman House Blog
Amnesty International Report-Maze of Injustice: The failure to protect Indigenous women from sexual violence in the USA
DONATE
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Sep. 20th, 2007 @ 03:56 pm Upcoming events

V-Day: Until the Violence Stops )

Queer Night at the Movies )

Q Center and GBLTC Welcome Luncheon )

Violence Prevention Resource Event )

The Epidemic of Violence Against Native Women )

Dating Safety 101 )

The Masculinity Dilemma in Violence Prevention )

Faye Wattleton )
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Sep. 5th, 2007 @ 03:41 pm Sexual harassment seminar

As part of my orientation at my new job, I was required to attend a seminar/workshop/lecture about sexual harassment in the workplace (specifically, my workplace - which most of you probably know but I won't repeat because this is a public entry).

I found the seminar impressive, because the presenter knew her stuff and wasn't just mouthing off platitudes. However, there is the niggling sense that this effort is just lip service, if there are not other efforts to back it up. So there's definitely room for critique and improvement.

Our presenter just sent out an email compiling the comments from the evaluation forms, and many of these comments expressed that very concern. However, a couple comments fell prey to the usual anti-feminist myths about sexual harassment, and I think it's useful to look at these straight from the horse's mouth - so there's no distraction of "people don't REALLY talk that way ..." - and see what these statements really mean.

Example #1 )

Example #2 )
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Jul. 30th, 2007 @ 02:09 pm "Prostitute" does not mean "worthless"

Jeffrey McKee was convicted of raping two women, but received a lighter prison sentence because his victims were prostitutes.

Luckily, there are people in the Washington state judicial system who aren't total fuckwits.

Read the article for the full story, but here are a few notable quotes that illustrate the persistent sexism and victim-blaming in public attitudes towards sexual violence. Sure, society says, we'll protect the victims of rape - but only if you're the right kind of victim.

Newsflash: working as a prostitute doesn't actually reduce the gravity of a rape )

x-posted to Shrub.com
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Jun. 2nd, 2007 @ 06:44 pm Preventative measures against violence [Women and Violence, Part 9]

[This is the final part of my series on Women and Violence, which I wrote as a project for a Women Studies course I took this quarter. For an explanation and information on my intentions with this series, please see the introduction.]

I realize that a quarter-long series of articles about violence against women can be depressing, and I'd like to end this on an optimistic note.

Unfortunately, I don't have The Solution to violence against women. Even I don't have delusions of being that wise. ;) But - and here I'm engaging in a bit of hubris - I believe in the power of language to educate and agitate for change. That's one of the reasons I chose to undertake this project, and why I choose to blog in general. Writing and dialoguing is important. It's powerful. It's consciousness raising in cyberspace.

Fighting the roots of violence )

x-posted to Shrub.com
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May. 29th, 2007 @ 10:26 pm Voice and silence [Women and Violence, Part 8]

[This is part of my series on Women and Violence, which I am writing as a project for a Women Studies course I'm taking. For an explanation and information on my intentions with this series, please see the introduction.]

In "The Transformation of Silence into Language and Action," Audre Lorde writes the following description of her thought process when faced with a potential diagnosis of cancer:

[...] and what I most regretted were my silences. Of what had I ever been afraid? To question or to speak as I believed could have meant pain, or death. But we all hurt in so many different ways, all the time, and pain will either change or end. Death, on the other hand, is the final silence. And that might be coming quickly, now, without regard for whether I had ever spoken what needed to be said, or had only betrayed myself into small silences, while I planned someday to speak, or waited for someone else's words. And I began to recognize a source of power within myself that comes from the knowledge that while it is most desirable not to be afraid, learning to put fear into a perspective gave me great strength.

I was going to die, if not sooner then later, whether or not I had ever spoken myself. My silences had not protected me. Your silence will not protect you." (41)


The meaning(s) of silence )

x-posted to Shrub.com
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May. 25th, 2007 @ 08:08 pm Policing women through violence [Women and Violence, Part 7]

[This is part of my series on Women and Violence, which I am writing as a project for a Women Studies course I'm taking. For an explanation and information on my intentions with this series, please see the introduction.]

In an article titled "'Femininity' and women's silence in response to sexual harassment and coercion," Kathleen V. Cairns describes how harassment of women functions as a method of social control over women's behavior:

[O]vert practices include the public, ritual shaming of women in the form of catcalls, lewd remarks and so on which serves to demonstrate the fact that 'any man or group of men feels entitled not only to pass judgement on any woman walking along minding her own business, but also to announce it to her' [Kotzin 1993: 167]

[...]

In patriarchy, women are taught to accept that their femaleness, their simple presence, are responsible for men's behavior towards them [...] It becomes women's responsibility to police themselves, to keep their dress, comportment and presence within approved limits to avoid 'provoking' harassment. (96-7).


This dynamic - of men acting with impunity to judge women, and women shouldering the blame for men's actions towards them - can be applied to other forms of gender violence as well. What it comes down to is the way that negative reactions from men - or even the anticipation of those reactions - function to police women in everything from their appearance to their behavior.

the lessons women learn )

x-posted to Shrub.com
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Apr. 27th, 2007 @ 12:59 pm Tradition and the obscuring of gender violence [Women and Violence, Part 4]

[This is part of my series on Women and Violence, which I am writing as a project for a Women Studies course I'm taking. For an explanation and information on my intentions with this series, please see the introduction.]

One of the most insidious ways of normalizing and justifying gendered violence is by tying it to tradition. By portraying perpetrators as if they were enacting the accepted practices of a culture, those in power position victims of violence not only against their victimizer, but also against the weight of a culture's history. Additionally, "tradition" is a popular buzzword that protects a practice from interrogation, hiding it behind a shield of maintaining history or honoring ancestors.

Where that leaves women )

x-posted to Shrub.com
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Apr. 16th, 2007 @ 11:21 am Discursive patterns regarding sexual violence [Women and Violence, Part 3]

[This is part of my series on Women and Violence, which I am writing as a project for a Women Studies course I'm taking. For an explanation and information on my intentions with this series, please see the introduction.]

A couple of disclaimers, to start:

-First, this is not about me being angry at, or blaming, any particular individuals. This is also not about placing the responsibility for a society-wide problem on these particular individuals.

-Second, this entry is for everyone to read, even though I refer to a specific example in which only a few people were involved. The point of this entry is, again, not to pin the responsibility on anyone. The point is to raise awareness of a common, problematic pattern that we all engage in.

With that said ... )

x-posted to Shrub.com
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Apr. 12th, 2007 @ 01:48 pm Denying responsibility for sexism [Women and Violence, Part 2]

[This is part of my series on Women and Violence, which I am writing as a project for a Women Studies course I'm taking. For an explanation and information on my intentions with this series, please see the introduction.]

One of the first readings assigned for this class has been Albert Bandura's "Selective Activation and Disengagement of Moral Control," published in volume 46, number 1 of Journal of Social Issues. The purpose of the article is to examine how, in normal and everyday circumstances, people can commit actions that they typically consider immoral. Most of the time, barring deviant individuals, we keep ourselves in check. We decide not to commit immoral actions according to what we understand as 'moral,' without needing other people to force us to do so.

According to Bandura, we regulate ourselves through the use of "self-sanctions." I guess it's like the superego, but without dealing with issues of the unconscious. For a psychological layperson like me, it's useful just to think of it as a conscience. Basically it means that we watch and judge ourselves, and that is what determines our behavior. So if those judgments are somehow deactivated, then we can engage in behavior that we would normally consider wrong, but without making ourselves feel shame.

This is a pretty useful concept for a class on gendered violence, because it helps explain why something normally heinous (violence, particularly sexual violence) has become so common against women. I also find it useful for wider discussions about sexism in general - why something as awful-sounding as discriminating against people based on their sex is nonetheless such a widespread part of our societies. Not by a few of the absolute worst people. Not by the people who mean to do it. But by everybody.

but I'm such a Nice Guy ... )

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Apr. 11th, 2007 @ 11:52 pm Introduction [Women and Violence, Part 1]

This is a bit of an experiment.

This quarter I'm taking a Women Studies course titled "Women and Violence." The final project for this class is open to creative interpretation, and so I'm attempting to bring together my academic feminism with my online feminism by using blogging as a part of that project. Over the next eight weeks, until the final week of the quarter, I'll be making weekly posts on the topic of women and violence. Each post will (hopefully) be inspired by the readings or discussions from class. They will be posted both here and on Shrub.com, and can be accessed through the "women and violence" tag.

The course itself approaches gendered violence as a continuum of behaviors that affect women, from the private to the public, the individual to the institutional, the legally prohibited to the socially permissible. This includes the most commonly discussed forms of gendered violence, such as rape and domestic violence; and also forms of violence such as war, abuse by prisons and other institutions, and indirect violence by the media. My series of posts will cover any of these topics, depending on what strikes me, or perhaps what is most relevant to the feminist blogosphere at the time.

If this all sounds kind of vague to you all, that's on purpose. I'm actually not sure how these next eight weeks will go, or what kind of writing I will do. I'm hoping to let the writing come organically out of influences from the course and online, so I'm not putting any limitations on this series for now.

Speaking of influences - while I always welcome responses from readers, I invite them even more heartily for this project. Comments or criticism - even if you don't have anything to add beyond, "I agree with you/Commenter A!" - please do make your voice heard. Part of the reason I'm using a blog format is so I can examine the responses I get, and how other people might connect to what I'm writing.

x-posted to Shrub.com
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Apr. 11th, 2007 @ 12:33 pm My "I hate people" moment for the day

Fuck.

I just went to use the restroom in my workplace - a single-user, unisex room inside our office - and this is what I saw: urine in the unflushed toilet, and something else. It was bizarre enough for me to look twice, rather than just cussing out inconsiderate people and flushing the toilet. My best guess (since there wasn't any toilet paper in the toilet and it leads me to think a man had used it) is that it was ejaculate.

But see, I don't know. Not being male, I've never had the opportunity for such a ... viewing pleasure. So I ask you, friendslist, if you can advise me on what spunk in a toilet bowl looks like. If you can tell me, I want to know - I promise not to judge you on how or why you have the information. I only judge fuckers who get off on harassing people.

In any case, I sent an email detailing the incident to our assistant dean to find out what can be done. It surprised me because this restroom is in our office, which is only accessible through our front door, which is highly visible, or a couple of other locked doors. And, while there are a few men working in our office, they are quite nice guys. (Not that that is a guarantee of anything, I know.)

So I don't know. Clearly this man wanted this to be seen and fuck with people. And I don't know what we can do besides give people a heads up to be on the lookout.

But you know? I almost didn't say anything. I almost went on my way, not wanting to trouble anyone else about it, because it wasn't a "big deal." Because, hey, just because I was made to feel severely uncomfortable and creeped out, what's that worth? And this is even in a strongly supportive, majority female work environment where I knew I wouldn't be judged for speaking up. It's just that I've had it socialized into the deepest part of me that I should stay quiet, keep my head down, not make a fuss. And most of all, not inconvenience other people for what bothers me. Because ladies don't do that, you know.

And people wonder why women don't speak up about sexual harassment more often.

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Apr. 6th, 2007 @ 10:53 am Take Back the Night 2007

Still decompressing. The Daily has an article on it in today's issue. Here's a rundown of how it went for me:

The rally and aftermath )

Thus ends SARVA Week 2007. It was pretty crazy for me since I was much more involved this year, but it was totally worth it. The other events of the week were all fantastic (though more humorous than heavy, and so not really worth attempting to translate into a blog post).

I hope you're all wearing jeans today for our Denim Day remembrance/protest. I've been wearing my SARVA Week t-shirt all week, so my co-workers all know about it and a bunch of them are wearing jeans today. :D

Oh, and ha ha.
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Apr. 4th, 2007 @ 10:59 am More Seattle/UW news

[info]kyonkun pointed me toward today's issue of The Daily, our campus newspaper, for more news about Monday's murder.

Today's issue presents some interesting juxtapositions. Good, bad, and in-between )
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